Friday, December 23, 2011

The ending of a very long and arduous cycle

Yes, the photo is out of focus. . . .but it felt relevant to how I'm feeling. It's been a very big year. . . .and sitting in this time of 'refocus' - as we leave one cycle and prepare for another. . . .I am feeling bone weary exhaustion!

I somehow guessed it wasn't just because of 'doing' but an energetic sense of completion. . . and I reckon I deserve to give out a great big sigh!!!  After all that's happened.

It's difficult to stay upright today. . .the weariness is so heavy. . . like all vital energy has come to a stop. . .reconfiguring and restructuring for not just any new cycle. . . .but the beginning of the infamous 2012.

I've mentioned a few times on FB that my sense of 2012 is the 'Year of Personal Power', I've noticed others have mentioned the word Power in connection to 2012 also.

With a Moon in Capricorn, I've been a bit of a late bloomer. . . . .also Sun on the IC. . . .so understanding, accepting and walking. . .with my many gifts. . .has been quite a journey.  But I'm sure everything is perfect.  'Cause being a Virgo, it would need to be right, not nearly or almost. . . .so it took 63yrs - who's counting. . .

So my sense is this weariness is like a quick revisit to everything that happened over these last 9 months. . .mammoth year really, I'm sure for all of us, in one way or another.

Next year we need to be on deck, no hiding down in the galleys - there's work to be done, there's much to share. . . .healing is now happening.

Focus is ever important. . .especially in this next cycle. . what we think, what we say. . .we create in the physical.  There's no more room for haziness, for pondering 'what is my purpose'. . .the stage is set, the drum is rolling - the curtain almost rising.

So we've been given a year to understand our self, to see below the veneer. . . what have you seen, what have you learnt - do you have the courage to put it into practise.

For me. . . .there is no alternative. . . .personal power is pretty powerful. .

So sitting still today and resting. . .leave others to fend for themselves. . .this is my life, my healing, my beginning. . . .there is nothing more important.

Cause it's only then that we can share our bounty. . . .

much love to you all and may the manifestation of your personal power. . .be simply glorious. . . .

much love
marilynxxx

Friday, November 18, 2011

Been a while . . . .a lot been happening

Well. . . .only weeks left of 2011. . .and what a year it's been.  I'm sure there are so many stories. . .would be nice to hear some of yours. . .

I seem to recall my last post. . .was about the birth of Mahalia. . . well, as life moves, it's twists and turns. . . a journey unexpected unfolded.

I'm still here at beautiful Mahalia. . .she's played a major part in my healing. . .and, surprise, surprise. . .for a Virgo. . . it's been another chapter of the body's calling.

It all began with enthusiasm and joy, to create a Sacred Healing Space; but only a couple of months into the vigorous preparations. . .the body had another agenda.  Suffice to say. . .the journey has been 'enlightening'.

We find ourselves in a time of massive potential, a cross roads - yes, it's always our decision.  But it appears the 'illusion' has many cracks appearing. . .for myself, my ability to 'see thru' the disguise, is at times a little disturbing.

But it must be something that has been awakened in others. . .as many have said 'enough'. . . .'we can see what you're doing. . .the emperor is wearing no clothes'.

For myself, at times, I find it sickening - to watch their almost comical display. . .I cry out loud to myself 'can't anyone else see this. . . .' - it's all so obvious.

These times of change will not be easy. . .doesn't mean we can't be in peace. . .but all the things we've relied on, could suddenly be gone.  Thinking about it and experiencing it. . .are two quite different things.

So on one hand there's the beauty and love. . .the essence from which we're created. . . on the other is the darkness, growing day by day.

So it's a challenge for me, at times, to find where I stand. . . the healer in me spreads love and light. . .the warrior wants to fight. . .

I've been more aware of one side of my nature. . .the other not so obvious, but in these times when the cries are thunderous. . .the healer cannot ignore them.

And also reaching the glorious time of Crone and Elder. . .the woman in her prime of life. . .our story now needs telling.  Our responsibility to guide our community.

So hold on to your seats for 2012. . .if 2011 has been any introduction. . .massive, massive transformation. . . .being with each and everyone of us.

Where has your journey brought you over these last few years. . . .and where does it want to take you?

A very dear friend of mine from my heart home of Adelaide. . .reminded me recently of my second Saturn Return (the introduction to the Crone). . .my god it was incredible, so powerful and explicit.  In the sky, the Moon turned fiery red and I watched it disappear in the star studded sky. . .it was a Full Moon Total Eclipse. . .and it sat on top of (conjunct) my Black Moon Lilith.

I remember clearly the morning after the eclipse, I sat and 'felt' the environment - "everything has changed" I said to myself. . .I could feel it all around me.  And in my life the change was significant.

I knew I had to do what I'd been putting off. . .a sense that time was limited. . .so packed everything up. . .business and home. . .and took off to see my son in Adelaide. . . .and since then have moved on to fulfil my vision.

That powerful Full Moon Eclipse on the same day as my Saturn Return. . .was in August 2007. . . .looking back now I see that was a turning point. . .not just personally. . . .'things' took a turn then. . .and continue to heat up with the help of our friends Pluto and Uranus.

So look back into your life. . .what happened to you in August 2007. . .and where has your journey taken you since then. . . .are you listening or are your ignoring?  The messages are a little difficult to ignore now - they're so loud earplugs are necessary. . .but it's the responsibility of each one of us. . .to honour our own understanding and wisdom.

The material world as we know it. . .is crumbling, and will continue. . . don't seek your safety in what you've known. . .open your eyes to the dawning.  Things are changing rapidly.

But within all of this - the ember we carry, in our heart - the essence of reality. . . .so, so important now. . .to have an anchor in what's true and real and lasting.

A challenge, yes, for all of us. . .this is no longer just an intellectual discussion. . . .the world as we've known it, is dissolving. . . .where will we place our anchor. . . .

love to you all and may multitudes of blessings be with you always.

marilynxxx