Tuesday, March 20, 2012

Today the Equinox. . .a day of balance

Mahalia

Today the Equinox. . .a day of balance

Today, I let go of the conditioning of the past
I take the reins of my life, and direct it with love. . .from the source
I sit in Peace, during all my endeavours
I live each moment, anew, blessed with kindness

I know no fear - I feel no hesitation
I trust myself to create my living
I feel loved, I feel honoured
I feel protection and safety

Old ghosts from the past - no longer can touch me

I see, I feel, I immerse myself in beauty
I love, I love - I feel it rushing toward me

Only beauty sees me - only love pursues me
Kindness is my world
Love is my teacher

I understand I create my world
with every thought and feeling
I have behind me much support
all my needs are fulfilled. . .fulfilled a plenty

I have with me my 'family'
all those who have gone before me
they know my purpose, more than I
and they're dedicated to bring it to fruition

You see, we accept the role, we know our part
a part of a very long line of people
The baton is passed - new steps are required
and the 'evolution' continues

I accept my role, I honour my support
I have a team of helpers

Today I am free - free from the past
The ghosts they can no longer harm me. . . .


marilynxxx


Sunday, March 18, 2012

The unfolding continues. . .

beautiful Brunswick Heads

The last few weeks have felt a little heavy (a 'little' did I say). . . now, I consciously try to focus on the beauty, the magick and the 'calling'.  But there are just those times when the clouds come over. . .black clouds at times.  Now being a Virgo with a Gemini Rising (Ascendant in Astrology)I'm familiar with logical thinking and reasoning. . . .well for you Astro buffs, my natal Mercury has Neptune sitting on it. . .so.o.o.o my mind also sees 'other' worldly dimensions.

So when those black clouds start to descent. . .I want to know why. . .so I try, with my mind, to understand and reason.  The mind is great, at times very clever. . .but in other times, it's out of it's depth when it comes to the subconscious.

Anyway this morning I was reading the article (I do a monthly 'Living in the Woodenbong Hills' for The Nimbin Good Times newspaper) I wrote for this months addition (you can see it online). . . .I sounded so grateful and positive.  I wasn't pretending, that's what I was feeling. . .and when I think of it. . .those words often come out of my mouth or thru my words. . . .so who is this one under the clouds, feeling heavy?

What I've found very helpful, (and let me add this was/is not something I always find easy, with such a strong cerebral leaning) is tuning into my body.  Finding a quiet, private place to lie down and take some deep breaths and focus on my body. . .go beyond the chattering in my head. . .and focus on what is happening, what I'm feeling in my body.  It's amazing really, 'cause pretty soon the 'reason' for my current state often emerges instantly.

The body is an amazing gift. . .so incredibly intelligent. . .it holds all the answers for my feelings. . .it's actually creating those feelings to get my attention.

Often times 'things' will arise, that I wasn't even relating to my experience. . .situations and reactions from many years previous. . .particularly from deeply buried, traumatic memories.

So in my desire to be authentic, I need to accept everything about me. . not just the lovely part. . .but also those parts which are difficult.

Intuition is always there, it's just often the voice seems so quiet. . .I don't give it full attention.  These last few weeks, with my sprained ankle, my little voice was giving me messages. . . .but I guess I just wasn't truly trusting them. . . . .an old habit I got into.

I had Polio when I was a little girl. . . and all the things that surround that, then and now.  And I remember reading that someone who had Polio and then has an injury, surgery or traumatic experience. . .  can unleash all the associated memories from the unconscious.  Of course there are physical issues as well. . .with some parts of the body not working. . . .but it reminded me again, to listen to my quiet voice when it speaks to me.

So it was no 'coincidence' (my Father used to say tha often) that I was feeling heavy and low. . .a barrage of old, unexpressed feelings and emotions. . .came rushing to the surface. . .you see the badly sprained ankle was on my 'good' leg. . .so now neither feet/legs were working. . . .and boy did that start triggering unconscious memories. 

Yes, I'm a human being, with frailties, with a heart, kindness and loving. . .I've spent a life on Earth with many experiences. . .some not easy. . . and all of these are contained within me.

My mind is relieved. . .'cause it likes to know the reason.  My body is lighter, 'cause I can release an old emotion. . .my heart is free 'cause I know I'm not those passing clouds. . .I can trust I'm OK and continue to see and praise the beauty.

During these times we find ourselves in, when much is in transformation. . .we too are going thru these changes. . . remember all is one and connected.

So make your body your friend, your therapist. . .go to her when in need. . . .she'll never let you down. . . .she is wise beyond reason.

much love to you all
marilynxxx

Friday, March 9, 2012

The Mirror of the Moon. . .

Last night the Full Moon in Virgo radiated her energy to us. . .here on Earth.

Having discovered Astrology at a very young age. . .I'm very familiar with 'signs' and 'degrees' - the influences of the planets, on us here on Earth.

The Full Moon is special for many of us. . .maybe just because she looks so beautiful.  We've learnt she gives off an energy at this time. . .heightened events have been recorded during this time of the cycle.

What I've discovered, during these Full Moon times. . is that each Full Moon has a distinct energy. . .all unique.  'Feel' her, and maybe you will too.

So I knew the exact 'placement' of the Moon last night. . .18 degrees Virgo. . .sitting on my Sun.  I was also aware that she came on Divine Feminine Day. . .I suspected this was special. . .so was looking forward to honouring her.

But I got blown away by the energy she radiated. . .so familiar to me, like a mirror, a reflection.  Yes we know that the Moon reflects the Sun. . .but last night I experienced it. . .very directly.  It was like looking at myself. . .a quite unexpected event. . .

My first words were "you're a no-nonsense Moon aren't you". . . "I see myself in you, you are me" . . .

"So down to earth yet so high above, so clear. . .so matter of fact, so, 'just is'. . .so earthly and strong.  So sure of herself,so strong, so ethereal. . . a true Goddess.
She likes to withdraw, retreat and renew. . .she exerts a lot of energy. . .when she's 'full'.
She plays in the heavens, then peeps out again. . .when she's renewed her energy. . .there's no stopping her.
She's brilliant, so complete. . .she radiates wholeness. . . my goodness she is beautiful!

There's no doubt that she's the Goddess, she's just so full and complete. . .a part of all life - she's not Earth, she's not Air, she's not Water nor Fire. . .she's the Goddess, she contains all in equal portions.

She makes me smile, I feel so at home. . she is me, looking at me. . in her luminated glory.

So radiant, yet so humble. . .Mars sits not far from her. . .she's bigger than him. . .he's dwarfed in her presence.

She is not of this Earth, she is not of the heavens. . .she is whole, she is one. . .she contains all. . . there's no doubt she's the Goddess.

She's so solid and bright. . .she's full and complete. . .she's just who she is. . .she gives her love freely.

She's separate but amongst. . .she lives in the heavens. . . that's her preference.  She's imbued with Earth energy, she's full. . .and solid, but with an ethereal air, separate and alone. . . . .she just is. . .

The Moon is a reflection. . . . .

much love to you all
marilynxxx