I can smell the new. . .

the Magick Tree in the gully

Excitement's in the air. . . .I can smell the newness

Smell is an undeveloped sense of mine. . . .but I guess some smells are subtle. . .

It's like the smell is a feeling. . . a sense of knowing. . . like it's real and tangible. . . .ready for coming

It's exciting when this newness. . . .comes heading toward me

All parts not in place. . .but the essence unmistakable

Sometimes we want things for such a long time

then 'whoof'. . . .they're gone

something new has been born

or is it new

has it always been there

hidden or ignored. . . for other possibilities

as values are pretty solid

and don't travel too far a distance. . .

so I'm excited. . . .a new life is opening

one of balance. . .love and kindness

family and friends

support and acknowledgement

funny how we choose things

we think are important

then 'whoofff' the curtain is risen

and everything changes. . .. .  .

marilynxxx

Movement a plenty. . .but direction still hidden

We live in times of massive movement. . .
all our levels changing order

many feelings compete for attention

oh my god. . .where am I going
how do I decipher all the information

in this age of mass communication
can distract from internal dialogue
'cause only we know the reason

that we're here
and where we're going

so how to settle
the restless feelings
go here, go there
what is my purpose

many options
present their cases

move back, move back
return to the stillness
the private chamber
deep inside you

only you
know the combination
to unlock the wisdom
you have carried

for many, many generations

needs are simple
wants so basic
follow your voice
understand the language

ask for help
ask for guidance

the light will come
illuminate the pathway

happiness and love
only considered

a peace so deep
saturates
your being

I need to be still
I need to listen. . . .


marilynxxx

Today the Equinox. . .a day of balance

Mahalia

Today the Equinox. . .a day of balance

Today, I let go of the conditioning of the past

I take the reins of my life, and direct it with love. . .from the source

I sit in Peace, during all my endeavours

I live each moment, anew, blessed with kindness

I know no fear - I feel no hesitation

I trust myself to create my living

I feel loved, I feel honoured

I feel protection and safety

Old ghosts from the past - no longer can touch me

I see, I feel, I immerse myself in beauty

I love, I love - I feel it rushing toward me

Only beauty sees me - only love pursues me

Kindness is my world

Love is my teacher

I understand I create my world

with every thought and feeling

I have behind me much support

all my needs are fulfilled. . .fulfilled a plenty

I have with me my 'family'

all those who have gone before me

they know my purpose, more than I

and they're dedicated to bring it to fruition

You see, we accept the role, we know our part

a part of a very long line of people

The baton is passed - new steps are required

and the 'evolution' continues

I accept my role, I honour my support

I have a team of helpers

Today I am free - free from the past

The ghosts they can no longer harm me. . . .

marilynxxx



The unfolding continues. . .

beautiful Brunswick Heads

The last few weeks have felt a little heavy (a 'little' did I say). . . now, I consciously try to focus on the beauty, the magick and the 'calling'.  But there are just those times when the clouds come over. . .black clouds at times.  Now being a Virgo with a Gemini Rising (Ascendant in Astrology)I'm familiar with logical thinking and reasoning. . . .well for you Astro buffs, my natal Mercury has Neptune sitting on it. . .so.o.o.o my mind also sees 'other' worldly dimensions.

So when those black clouds start to descent. . .I want to know why. . .so I try, with my mind, to understand and reason.  The mind is great, at times very clever. . .but in other times, it's out of it's depth when it comes to the subconscious.

Anyway this morning I was reading the article (I do a monthly 'Living in the Woodenbong Hills' for The Nimbin Good Times newspaper) I wrote for this months addition (you can see it online). . . .I sounded so grateful and positive.  I wasn't pretending, that's what I was feeling. . .and when I think of it. . .those words often come out of my mouth or thru my words. . . .so who is this one under the clouds, feeling heavy?

What I've found very helpful, (and let me add this was/is not something I always find easy, with such a strong cerebral leaning) is tuning into my body.  Finding a quiet, private place to lie down and take some deep breaths and focus on my body. . .go beyond the chattering in my head. . .and focus on what is happening, what I'm feeling in my body.  It's amazing really, 'cause pretty soon the 'reason' for my current state often emerges instantly.

The body is an amazing gift. . .so incredibly intelligent. . .it holds all the answers for my feelings. . .it's actually creating those feelings to get my attention.

Often times 'things' will arise, that I wasn't even relating to my experience. . .situations and reactions from many years previous. . .particularly from deeply buried, traumatic memories.

So in my desire to be authentic, I need to accept everything about me. . not just the lovely part. . .but also those parts which are difficult.

Intuition is always there, it's just often the voice seems so quiet. . .I don't give it full attention.  These last few weeks, with my sprained ankle, my little voice was giving me messages. . . .but I guess I just wasn't truly trusting them. . . . .an old habit I got into.

I had Polio when I was a little girl. . . and all the things that surround that, then and now.  And I remember reading that someone who had Polio and then has an injury, surgery or traumatic experience. . .  can unleash all the associated memories from the unconscious.  Of course there are physical issues as well. . .with some parts of the body not working. . . .but it reminded me again, to listen to my quiet voice when it speaks to me.

So it was no 'coincidence' (my Father used to say tha often) that I was feeling heavy and low. . .a barrage of old, unexpressed feelings and emotions. . .came rushing to the surface. . .you see the badly sprained ankle was on my 'good' leg. . .so now neither feet/legs were working. . . .and boy did that start triggering unconscious memories. 

Yes, I'm a human being, with frailties, with a heart, kindness and loving. . .I've spent a life on Earth with many experiences. . .some not easy. . . and all of these are contained within me.

My mind is relieved. . .'cause it likes to know the reason.  My body is lighter, 'cause I can release an old emotion. . .my heart is free 'cause I know I'm not those passing clouds. . .I can trust I'm OK and continue to see and praise the beauty.

During these times we find ourselves in, when much is in transformation. . .we too are going thru these changes. . . remember all is one and connected.

So make your body your friend, your therapist. . .go to her when in need. . . .she'll never let you down. . . .she is wise beyond reason.

much love to you all

marilynxxx

The Mirror of the Moon. . .

Last night the Full Moon in Virgo radiated her energy to us. . .here on Earth.

Having discovered Astrology at a very young age. . .I'm very familiar with 'signs' and 'degrees' - the influences of the planets, on us here on Earth.

The Full Moon is special for many of us. . .maybe just because she looks so beautiful.  We've learnt she gives off an energy at this time. . .heightened events have been recorded during this time of the cycle.

What I've discovered, during these Full Moon times. . is that each Full Moon has a distinct energy. . .all unique.  'Feel' her, and maybe you will too.

So I knew the exact 'placement' of the Moon last night. . .18 degrees Virgo. . .sitting on my Sun.  I was also aware that she came on Divine Feminine Day. . .I suspected this was special. . .so was looking forward to honouring her.

But I got blown away by the energy she radiated. . .so familiar to me, like a mirror, a reflection.  Yes we know that the Moon reflects the Sun. . .but last night I experienced it. . .very directly.  It was like looking at myself. . .a quite unexpected event. . .

My first words were "you're a no-nonsense Moon aren't you". . . "I see myself in you, you are me" . . .

"So down to earth yet so high above, so clear. . .so matter of fact, so, 'just is'. . .so earthly and strong.  So sure of herself,so strong, so ethereal. . . a true Goddess.
She likes to withdraw, retreat and renew. . .she exerts a lot of energy. . .when she's 'full'.
She plays in the heavens, then peeps out again. . .when she's renewed her energy. . .there's no stopping her.
She's brilliant, so complete. . .she radiates wholeness. . . my goodness she is beautiful!

There's no doubt that she's the Goddess, she's just so full and complete. . .a part of all life - she's not Earth, she's not Air, she's not Water nor Fire. . .she's the Goddess, she contains all in equal portions.

She makes me smile, I feel so at home. . she is me, looking at me. . in her luminated glory.

So radiant, yet so humble. . .Mars sits not far from her. . .she's bigger than him. . .he's dwarfed in her presence.

She is not of this Earth, she is not of the heavens. . .she is whole, she is one. . .she contains all. . . there's no doubt she's the Goddess.

She's so solid and bright. . .she's full and complete. . .she's just who she is. . .she gives her love freely.

She's separate but amongst. . .she lives in the heavens. . . that's her preference.  She's imbued with Earth energy, she's full. . .and solid, but with an ethereal air, separate and alone. . . . .she just is. . .

The Moon is a reflection. . . . .

much love to you all
marilynxxx

The ending of a very long and arduous cycle

Yes, the photo is out of focus. . . .but it felt relevant to how I'm feeling. It's been a very big year. . . .and sitting in this time of 'refocus' - as we leave one cycle and prepare for another. . . .I am feeling bone weary exhaustion!

I somehow guessed it wasn't just because of 'doing' but an energetic sense of completion. . . and I reckon I deserve to give out a great big sigh!!!  After all that's happened.

It's difficult to stay upright today. . .the weariness is so heavy. . . like all vital energy has come to a stop. . .reconfiguring and restructuring for not just any new cycle. . . .but the beginning of the infamous 2012.

I've mentioned a few times on FB that my sense of 2012 is the 'Year of Personal Power', I've noticed others have mentioned the word Power in connection to 2012 also.

With a Moon in Capricorn, I've been a bit of a late bloomer. . . . .also Sun on the IC. . . .so understanding, accepting and walking. . .with my many gifts. . .has been quite a journey.  But I'm sure everything is perfect.  'Cause being a Virgo, it would need to be right, not nearly or almost. . . .so it took 63yrs - who's counting. . .

So my sense is this weariness is like a quick revisit to everything that happened over these last 9 months. . .mammoth year really, I'm sure for all of us, in one way or another.

Next year we need to be on deck, no hiding down in the galleys - there's work to be done, there's much to share. . . .healing is now happening.

Focus is ever important. . .especially in this next cycle. . what we think, what we say. . .we create in the physical.  There's no more room for haziness, for pondering 'what is my purpose'. . .the stage is set, the drum is rolling - the curtain almost rising.

So we've been given a year to understand our self, to see below the veneer. . . what have you seen, what have you learnt - do you have the courage to put it into practise.

For me. . . .there is no alternative. . . .personal power is pretty powerful. .

So sitting still today and resting. . .leave others to fend for themselves. . .this is my life, my healing, my beginning. . . .there is nothing more important.

Cause it's only then that we can share our bounty. . . .

much love to you all and may the manifestation of your personal power. . .be simply glorious. . . .

much love
marilynxxx

Been a while . . . .a lot been happening

Well. . . .only weeks left of 2011. . .and what a year it's been.  I'm sure there are so many stories. . .would be nice to hear some of yours. . .

I seem to recall my last post. . .was about the birth of Mahalia. . . well, as life moves, it's twists and turns. . . a journey unexpected unfolded.

I'm still here at beautiful Mahalia. . .she's played a major part in my healing. . .and, surprise, surprise. . .for a Virgo. . . it's been another chapter of the body's calling.

It all began with enthusiasm and joy, to create a Sacred Healing Space; but only a couple of months into the vigorous preparations. . .the body had another agenda.  Suffice to say. . .the journey has been 'enlightening'.

We find ourselves in a time of massive potential, a cross roads - yes, it's always our decision.  But it appears the 'illusion' has many cracks appearing. . .for myself, my ability to 'see thru' the disguise, is at times a little disturbing.

But it must be something that has been awakened in others. . .as many have said 'enough'. . . .'we can see what you're doing. . .the emperor is wearing no clothes'.

For myself, at times, I find it sickening - to watch their almost comical display. . .I cry out loud to myself 'can't anyone else see this. . . .' - it's all so obvious.

These times of change will not be easy. . .doesn't mean we can't be in peace. . .but all the things we've relied on, could suddenly be gone.  Thinking about it and experiencing it. . .are two quite different things.

So on one hand there's the beauty and love. . .the essence from which we're created. . . on the other is the darkness, growing day by day.

So it's a challenge for me, at times, to find where I stand. . . the healer in me spreads love and light. . .the warrior wants to fight. . .

I've been more aware of one side of my nature. . .the other not so obvious, but in these times when the cries are thunderous. . .the healer cannot ignore them.

And also reaching the glorious time of Crone and Elder. . .the woman in her prime of life. . .our story now needs telling.  Our responsibility to guide our community.

So hold on to your seats for 2012. . .if 2011 has been any introduction. . .massive, massive transformation. . . .being with each and everyone of us.

Where has your journey brought you over these last few years. . . .and where does it want to take you?

A very dear friend of mine from my heart home of Adelaide. . .reminded me recently of my second Saturn Return (the introduction to the Crone). . .my god it was incredible, so powerful and explicit.  In the sky, the Moon turned fiery red and I watched it disappear in the star studded sky. . .it was a Full Moon Total Eclipse. . .and it sat on top of (conjunct) my Black Moon Lilith.

I remember clearly the morning after the eclipse, I sat and 'felt' the environment - "everything has changed" I said to myself. . .I could feel it all around me.  And in my life the change was significant.

I knew I had to do what I'd been putting off. . .a sense that time was limited. . .so packed everything up. . .business and home. . .and took off to see my son in Adelaide. . . .and since then have moved on to fulfil my vision.

That powerful Full Moon Eclipse on the same day as my Saturn Return. . .was in August 2007. . . .looking back now I see that was a turning point. . .not just personally. . . .'things' took a turn then. . .and continue to heat up with the help of our friends Pluto and Uranus.

So look back into your life. . .what happened to you in August 2007. . .and where has your journey taken you since then. . . .are you listening or are your ignoring?  The messages are a little difficult to ignore now - they're so loud earplugs are necessary. . .but it's the responsibility of each one of us. . .to honour our own understanding and wisdom.

The material world as we know it. . .is crumbling, and will continue. . . don't seek your safety in what you've known. . .open your eyes to the dawning.  Things are changing rapidly.

But within all of this - the ember we carry, in our heart - the essence of reality. . . .so, so important now. . .to have an anchor in what's true and real and lasting.

A challenge, yes, for all of us. . .this is no longer just an intellectual discussion. . . .the world as we've known it, is dissolving. . . .where will we place our anchor. . . .

love to you all and may multitudes of blessings be with you always.

marilynxxx